I graduate in a little over a week. There I said it. Everyone’s saying “ohh, you must be so excited” or “you must be so happy”. To be honest, I don’t know how I feel. When I really think about it, the best adjective I would use is indifferent.
Now, most of you guys must be saying, how are you indifferent to graduating and finishing school?! It’s such a huge milestone. While you are right, I still don’t feel particularly excited.
When I think about graduating I get nervous. I’m honestly terrified. I spent 5 years studying in college, and for what?
I don’t have anything to show for it yet. What if I spent all those years studying and I end up a failure? I’m worried I’m going to disappoint my parents. Is it normal to feel this way?
I should be excited for the future, but I don’t like changes like this, so I guess I’m not. I mean I kinda am, because I have huge plans coming up, which I haven’t told you guys about, but at the same time I’m not.
I have these dreams and plans for myself, and they’re risky. I know I can do it if I work hard enough, but what if my parents don’t approve of my choices? I know what you guys are thinking, what 22 year old still needs the approval of their parents?
My parents payed for my schooling. I have been extremely grateful for that. I don’t want them to feel as if I wasted their money.
I have high hopes for myself, I do, it’s just with everyone reminding me of the impending graduation, I get more than a lil nervous.
Sending all the positive energy in the world. Have a beyond wonderful day.