I have briefly explained that I’ve been having more than a few off weeks. Since I have come back from California, I have had more than a few upsetting situations that have made me more than unmotivated to blog. But I have to be honest. I’ve missed it. Today I’ll explain myself, and Thursday we’ll carry on. As Rick Sanchez once said, I’m back baby!
So where have I been?
My Computer broke.
I won’t say that this is the main reason that I haven’t posted. Last week when I needed to vent/write I realized my computer’s hard drive was giving me issues. I have to take it to my genius of an uncle and see if it’s gonna be an easy fix. I would hate to lose my information. Luckily all of my photos and music are saved on my external drive, but I do have all my Costa Rica footage on there, which I was starting to edit for my next YouTube video! Hopefully I’ll have it fully fixed and functional within the next week. Fingers crossed!
I felt betrayed.
As you may or may not have known, I was supposed to move out with my best friend sometime this year. Things were taking a lot longer than we planned, and so she went to my other friend and they got an apartment without me. I understand her circumstances were less than ideal. The one thing that gets me is the fact that she didn’t even invite me. I spent months looking for places for us, and she found a place without considering me or my feelings. I’m happy that she’s happier now, but I can’t help but wonder how she would have felt if I did the same thing to her. We’re supposed to be best friends, but she didn’t invite the person who she was planning on moving out with for the last year. Welp, I guess things happen for a reason, and my eyes are a little more open.
My heart got broken.
I’m not going to go into too much detail on this, only because this is probably the part of my life that I keep the closest to myself. Bottom line, I got my heart broken. It happens. It wasn’t meant to be. Definitely put me in a funk. I still have good days and bad days, but I’m dealing with it. I have to thank Erika for being my rock in all of this. She’s such an amazing friend, and I don’t know what I would do if she wasn’t here with me through all of this.
My Depression took a toll on me.
It happens. I don’t know why, but this happened right before I got my heart broken. Maybe I should have ordered this before my other reasons, but I feel like since I deal with this on and off all the time, it seems like the worst excuse as to why I’ve been away. Like yes, this make a difference when you pile up all the other issues on top of it, but alone? No. I’m stronger than that.
I am happy to say that I’ve taken a long three weeks to feel better, but I’m finally getting there. I lost, but I am alive and conquering. I promise to give you normal content again. I missed you all! Sending you all positive vibes, strength and love. If any of you need someone to talk to through any hard times in your lives, I am more than here. Have a wonderful day.